If I had more time

Time is such a precious resource for people like us who perform multiple roles day in and day out. Sometimes, I envy those who seem to have an extra hour or two, or those who don’t need to rush through their to-do list for the day. Every single work and school day for me starts at 3:15am. Yes, you read it right; it’s not a typo. The first 15 minutes are spent by pulling and psyching myself up for what’s to come. In the two hours or so that follow (a.k.a. the amazing race as what hubby and I call it), we ready the kids for school, prepare their packed snacks and lunches, and make sure they eat and drink milk before they leave the house. It is also within this period that I prep myself so I can go with them and make certain that they get dropped off in their respective schools safely. (If that’s not being hands-on, then I don’t know what is!) And once baby #3 goes inside her classroom, I head out and make my way to the office. So you see, I’m half exhausted, half sleepy even before office hours.

Obviously, I can’t slack off at work and use my early morning “adventure” as an excuse. I’m tired, definitely, but it is my choice and it is for my children. So I go through my day in the office by working hard as I always do, and stay until 5:30pm or 6:00pm (at least usually). I go back to mommy mode as soon as I leave the office and look forward to the hugs, kisses, sweet “I love you”s and “I missed you”s, stories and many more that my kids shower me with. After having our dinner, resting a bit, and taking a shower, we work on their school assignments, projects and what-have-you. These go on until about 9:00pm when the kids are supposed to get ready for bed. Add a couple of hours for some work, writing, and other stuff before I finally shut off my eyes. Whew, just writing about a day in my life made me tired! 🙂

So, going back to our topic. Um, where can I buy extra time? I need loads, please. Or how can I make extra time? It’s a long shot, I know, but it’s worth a try, right? 🙂 Seriously speaking, I could use a few more beyond the 24 hours that one day gives us. If I had more time, though, I know I would be in for some major decision-making.

If I had more time, I would definitely choose to rest. It would be nice to lessen my sleep debt, which I think is decades’ worth by now, and catch a few (or many) winks. Ah, what a fantasy! 🙂 But then again, I would think that time will be wasted if I used it all up by sleeping and recharging, so I’ll probably just go with doing something not office-related, or at least half and half.

Or maybe I would just work on a home improvement project like decorating our living room, adding a few new pieces of furniture, changing the accents, or rearranging our bedroom. But then again, after the project I’ll be too tired to enjoy my extra time, so instead, I will focus on myself.

You see, I have a list of things that I’ve wanted to do for myself for the longest time. Perhaps a quick stop at the spa and then the salon, or several days of retail therapy? I haven’t splurged in a while so that sounds like a great idea. But then again I’m afraid I’ll end up feeling guilty for being selfish and only thinking about myself. So maybe if I had more time, I would opt to spend it with my hubby and kids, or even with my parents, siblings, and in-laws. And then with some of my closest friends.

I didn’t realize that thinking about how to best use my extra time – if and when that actually happens – is tough. So maybe I don’t really need extra time after all (or perhaps just insert more rest here and there, but other than than, I’m ok). Maybe I just need to be constantly reminded why I spend the limited time I have the way I do now, and it’s really simple. It’s all about my family. Family over work; family over myself.

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